Believe in yourself

Our university intramural week is coming to its end. Ever since my first year in college, I seriously wanted to join a team of any sport to represent our college during  the intramural sports contests. I do play various sports like badminton, basketball and softball, but I just think that I’m not that good enough to be in a sports competition. A lot of my friends already tried to persuade me, but I just could not get the courage to say yes. Next year will be my last year (hopefully), I still want to experience becoming an athlete. I want to get out of my shell, to break free from my comfort zone, and  to prove to myself that I am capable of doing something great. I need to start doing what I really wanted to do in the first place, and on doing that I need to start thinking that I am good enough and my talent too. So I will put everything in God’s hand.

Thy Will Be Done

Lots of things happened within this semester. To me, it’s a lot to take in. So many lessons are learned and will be learned in the future. I realized that it is not just about good time management or getting things done; nor it is to be happy, to get better, to do well, or to  be loved, but it is to have Jesus within you. After all, He will guide your footsteps if only you are willing to move your feet.

So after meditating for a while, I came across this quote by Robin Williams. It can be interpreted differently though. It says,

You will have bad times, but they will always wake you up to the stuff you weren’t paying attention to.

Lazy Ms. Lazybone

i just had a talk with my father on the phone. He asked me if i’m okay, and I said “I think I’m having a migraine.” Then all of a sudden he reacted by saying a lengthy lecture about me diagnosing myself of having these and that, when in fact I’m not even a doctor and that maybe I’m just exaggerating my own condition. At first, I was really annoyed and upset and I just thought, how can he not understand and get the fact that my head is really hurting like hell?

But then in the middle of his lecture, I started to catch up on what he was really trying to say. My father talked about how I would immediately stop myself from doing anything and getting myself feeling low just because of my slightly terrible sickness (like cold, fever, headache, etc.). I admit it, he’s right. Sometimes, I do exaggerate things just to make an excuse and to be able to escape from doing anything, which usually involves my studies. Bottom line is, no matter what the circumstance you’re into right now, do not make it as an excuse and a reason to feel down and unproductive, instead, make it as an inspiration and a reason to strive harder and move forward.

Right after the phone call ended, I thought about everything that my father said. I recalled how a simple question of “How are you?” had turned into striving hard and moving forward. I was amazed of how my father knows me, it’s like he can read my mind. Honestly, I was about to sleep without even having my assignments done and like I reasoned-out, it is because of my headache, which is pretty much bearable, by the way. Now I’m up and still awake; by the moment I’ll click the publish button, I’m going to turn my laptop off and do my homeworks. Thank you so much for reading!

PS: With all these lengthy text, it all boils down to laziness. Oh, dear me…

My Dream for Education

“Education is our passport to the future, for tomorrow belongs to the people who prepare for it today.”― Malcolm X

 

I spent my childhood playing and dreaming of becoming a nurse, a doctor, and a lawyer, all at the same time. When I reached high school, I suddenly wanted to become an artist, maybe because of the social media influences and other social stuffs. Then the college applications happened in a flash, like an unexpected visitor, it seemed like a disturbance to my life at that time. Time came when I finally had to decide, my most frequently asked question (FAQ) at that moment is: What is really my dream? Suddenly, dreaming became so hard, and all of my childhood dreams remained as merely part of my childhood memories.

 

Eventually, I decided that I wanted to become a special educator. How? Well, it happened when my father went out-of-town and I asked him to buy some books for me. I was expecting him to buy some Danielle Steel novels, but what he brought for me were classics, one of them is “The Story of My Life” by Helen Keller. It so happened that my curiosity struck in; I read that book first, and everything else followed through.

   credits to the owner of this photo                            Thank you, you’re amazing!

 

After that, I successfully managed to get into Xavier University- Ateneo de Cagayan, with the course that I knew I wanted, and now,  dreamed. Now, by God’s grace and guidance, I am in my third year. My FAQ this time is, “What is my dream for education?”

 

The only thing that’s clear for me is that I want to become a special educator someday and that I really want to teach children with special needs. As of now, I’ll end this entry with that question of mine. Everything may still be quite blurry for me right this moment, but I know that God will help me find my answers and that He will be with me throughout the process.